Joolez Talk

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Take it or leave it

You can fight your destiny or you can accept it. In the end it won't make a difference. We all have to die eventually. Only the path to the inevitable will differ depending on your belief.

You decide if you stick by the rules or obey your own.

Getting old

And I don't give a ***

Tarte Tatin

Instead of dinner we are going to have Tarte Tatin tonight:

In the recipe it said to first melt the fat-reduced butter and sugar in a pan, then pour it in the tarte-cast and have it caramelize on the cast on top of the stove. Of course I thought I was smarter and let it caramelize in the pan and then tried pouring it in the cast, which was pitiful. The cast was cold - as opposed to the caramel - and naturally I had only small caramel pieces in the cast. Very clever, dimwit, moi.

So I tried again and this time I poured the sugar-butter mix in the cast right after it started melting and then put the cast in the oven. Hah! I outsmarted you! Beat it! Scram! I am soooo clever!

Of course now I had to stand next to the oven and stand there in the most awkward position, leaning down, completely turning my neck -ouch- so I did not miss the crucial point when the whole thing starts turning caramel-brownish. It went well. So then I -first- tried to neatly arrange the sliced apple pieces until I realized this is going to take hours, and we are going to eat it without praising the "art-work", so I decided -instead- to just pour the slices and "kind-of"-arrange it very quickly. It has to bake at 200° for 20 mins, before I have to add the "crust" (in this case: "mille-feuille").

So now this masterpiece is in the oven and - in 4 mins - I have to put the "mille-feuille"-dough on it. Ok, so I didn't do the "mille-feuille" from scratch. The ghost went to the store and bought it. But not the frozen kind. He got the "fresh" one. I rolled out the dough and now -in 2 mins- I have to top the cast with it and bake it another 10-15 minutes at 250° and then it's ready!

I have to admit, after laying the "mille-feuille" on top, right now it does look very nice and smells even better! Can hardly wait to taste it!

--- Good thing I looked after the tarte after 5 mins, because the mille-feuille had already turned almost black. So I took it out. I state: you only need 15 mins instead of 20 mins at 200° before you add the dough, and 5-10 mins at 250° with the mille-feuille suffice. Nevertheless it looks yummy and in a couple of minutes I know if it also tastes yummy. --

It tastes great, only it is really, really sweet! We didn't manage to eat more than one - admittedly big - piece.

I want out

NOW

Moving

It's settled. I have to move. I have to be part of a "group" that isn't one to begin with and consists of a group of people who all like to work "alone", who want their separate offices and "quiet" - as in "no talking". I will be sharing an office with a woman I don't even know how to make smalltalk with and a guy who has lost his hearing due to a childrens disease he contracted as an adult. I don't know how to do sign language, so this will be an interesting experience. He can't hear, I can't talk (well, hopefully soon I can). Perfect match.

My field of work is going to be extremely dull and boring. I will bore myself to death and have to hang out with people I'd rather be caught dead with. Yeah ... I am very exciting. And sarcastic too.

Life's what you make it

Life's what you make it
Don't backdate it
Celebrate it

(excerpts from Life's what you make it - TalkTalk (1986)

Care-less

So you don't do things, go places .... because people will talk about you behind your back, or worse: to your face. You are sick of being stared at and you only want to hide in a safe place.

Tell you what:
The same people would talk about you even if you looked like a supermodel, because people always "talk". And why do you want to punish yourself instead of sticking it to them! You deserve a happy life no matter what you look like. Care less - about other people. Care more - for yourself.

For all we know you only got one life. So eat your cake and don't save it up for later. It won't get any better. If people don't like you the way you are now. There is a good chance they won't like you differentlx either.

You should know, that you can't be liked by everybody. And why should you. All you need is to accept yourself, accept things the way they are now. Stop holding on to the past, don't forget you have a future! So don't go hiding from it.

Life doesn't take breaks

Stop holding off doing things, life doesn't take breaks. Even if you do. Life will go on without you.

Everything changes

When you are young you should be given a little book that will tell you all the things you will know once you get older, so you can appreciate the little things that happen to you while you are young, and you know that you should cherish every single moment of it, so you can remember them when you are old.

There is nothing worse than being old and having no memories, because you neglected life and decided to live "later". But honey there is one thing you don't know: "later" never comes, only "too late" will show up on your doorstep unexpectedly.